QUOTE (Finish_ed @ Jun 3 2009, 02:20 PM)
<{POST_SNAPBACK}> Perhaps this may be a shock, or it can be predictable. As many of you have seen, I have not been around as of late at all. I have been gone on 4 days period and not come on whatsoever, not even for a second. I didn't announce that I retired, but I think that news spread. I didn't get much time to really get on to say anything. Throughout my time in FT, I have always been able to stay active because when someone would ask me to do something, I would say that I can't. And now that I have retired, all the times I have said no, I can't do this, no I can't do that, I can now say, yes I can come. This is why I am no longer around.
About a month and a half ago, I started realizing that I really don't give a crap anymore. It got worse when we started to get better, and I still didn't really care. I could careless that we had a great win, or I wouldn't care that we had lost terribly. I felt guilty, but I kept it to myself and showed that I care. About 3 weeks ago, my prom weekend, I posted I'd be gone for 4 days. I came back after prom weekend and I got a lot of crap for being absent for so long. I really didn't give a crap. What disturbed me most was that when Ahmad left, I didn't care.. When Jake was inactive, It didn't bother me, when Mika and Derek (To be honest I struggled to remember his name because I've just not give a crap). I didn't care that our rank team was dematerialize due to inactivity, and overall I just could careless what happened to the clan. I knew I cannot stay leader this way, and I have always been a person that holds my responsibilities, I see being leader of FT as something that I have to do because I took the responsibility to do it, which is why I put up with crap for such a long time. But if I'm going to be a leader, I have to try my best or not do it at all. And I have no more gas in my tank. I can't do it anymore. I chose to retire. I was going to close FT after consulting a few people, but some people still wanted to keep it up.
At first there was a misunderstanding for me that Sarah said she was going to come back and help Karol get through this, so I let Karol handle the clan with Sarah. Then I was told I misunderstood her and that is far from what she had said. Things went downhill and we lost 7 members through a span of 3 days. Seeing that Karol's spirit is already broken, it is impossible for this clan to keep going. We have no ranks, no one who I have seen able to keep this clan running. I am closing it while we can still say that we close on our terms. Some people said to keep it up until summer ends, but at this point, I see no point in making people war when people don't actually want to war and just do it for FT.
I know it may sound selfish of me, but this is the decision I have made. Wuey says that it would be nice if everyone that plans on joining another clan got together and chose a clan to go to, personally, I will not be joining another clan ever again. I don't even think I will ever log into RS besides to sell all my stuff and cancel my membership.
#Rsft will remain, all Ex-FT members will recieve voice. I will change up the forums so people can still hang around. I hope to make it so that these forums will still be active along with our IRC. I will not judge you base on which clan you decide to go to. I will hopefully be able to hang in #rsft whenever I can.
I want to thank everyone for everything each and every person has done. There will be a couple topics coming, one about history, one with shoutoutz, and some others. I hope you guys still hang around.
If you have any questions about why the clan has closed or why I did not pick an alternative, please post here and I will reply when I can.
